Awareness and Conversion
One of the twelve, who was called Judas Iscariot, went to the chief priests and said, “What will you give me if I betray him to you?” They paid him thirty pieces of silver. And from that moment he began to look for an opportunity to betray him. (Matthew 26:14-25)
I’m reminded—often—that I’m imperfect. I sometimes make bad trade-offs that betray myself or those around me in some way.
My poor trades involve time with family, career ambitions, evaluation of my 401k, volunteer work I want to dedicate myself to, and so on. Work-life balance often comes down to these sorts of trade-offs, which makes me look more closely at the values I’m trying to follow.
Despite the bad trade-offs I make, I keep trying to see what is true—I keep looking for an opportunity to improve and change.
Judas made a betrayal for 30 pieces of silver—he made his trade-off with the chief priests “and from that moment he began to look for an opportunity to betray Jesus.” Even after Jesus names the truth of what he’s done, he refuses to see it and convert.
Our reflection during this Lenten season has been an opportunity to see the truth and look at ourselves rightly, to seek forgiveness and find a better path from the betrayals and bad trade-offs we’ve made. It has been an opportunity to convert and change our lives towards greater faithfulness—an opportunity that Judas failed to take. Even now, it is not too late to change our course.
God is the truth behind our lives and remains patient and ready for our awareness and conversion. Let us open ourselves to see this truth rightly and follow it.
Prayer for Today
Father in Heaven, while Judas looked for an opportunity to betray him, your Son anticipated his betrayal with steadfast faithfulness to your will. With the days when we commemorate his life-giving death and resurrection nearly upon us, help us to enter into the Triduum with prayerful attentiveness to these stories of our salvation. May our participation in these upcoming liturgies help us to mirror Jesus’ faithfulness, who lives and reigns with you and the Spirit, God forever and ever. Amen.